when there are 8 songs from one person sitting in my spotify inbox that i have no intentions of ever listening to i think that sums up my relationship with them.

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is it wrong to want to cut someone out of your life just because you don't like them? in retrospect i kind of tend to do that. and then after a time, when the relationship has been completely burnt up... only then do i miss them.

i think i just need to find somebody new in my life. to pursue. someone great. i need to not let "they're TOO good" be a factor. i need to go all out, not settle, find somebody

gorgeous.

they exist. and i can have them. if i manipulate my environment. the right level of nice. the right level of not nice.

i can rise.

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^did you know that i hate that i think like this a lot? cuz i fucking hate it

where is everyobdy? come back to this wasteland, it feels good.
i need evreyobdy aruond.

if you pretend she is faulkner all the sudden her writing becomes good

March 30th
Brown
Princeton

April 1st
Stanford
Vanderbilt
Yale

heart racing
<3

i want to tell the world (but i won't)

...must explain away their humanity to be good. that's where i try hard and fail.

bitches, every one of us

Hershey's Special Dark Mildly Sweet Chocolate pieces shoved in there, cutting off the air, they come to your side and there is  please, and god.

you live you continue your evil.

putting minutes of silence into the middle of your song isn't optimal.

where the fuck can i find me some angst